Just Breathe

/blows dust away/ fuuh!!

There. Hello blog readers. I think it has been decades since I've ever written a blog post here and I'm deeply apologize. To be blunt, I'm lazy... And I have no aspiration to continue blogging here. Yes, I think my blogging days will end here. Why? If I could list a few reasons, I hope my readers could understand why I'm leaving this blog.

Lots of things has happened since I first opening up into this blog. I write all about my happiness, sadness and not to mention my emotional delusions. Afterwards, it's a matter I receive a positive or negative feedback from it. I have to admit, some of it have hurt some people - some very important people in my life and I couldn't come  face to face with them any more. I carry the guilt of writing some nasty stuff on this blog and if I continue not realize my mistakes, I cannot deal with it any further.

Aichan, just breathe.

Besides that, this blog is so special to me that write almost about every thing, every day. I tend to forget and get all worked up about it just hoping I have some place into somebody else's lives. I put down word by word what I've been through from my POV and link it to how it relates to others which made them very uneasy. I continue to displease them.

Again, just breathe.

I may not be the best blog writer to come around. Just because I'm going to abandon this blog I'm one unhappy person, No. I shall continue living my life, breathing. I want to leave blogging so that I can write to myself about my life rather than writing it to others. I'm proud with my blog so I should stop here and open a new book. Like what I've called my blog, "Another Year of Miracles"... I pray that every day, every years to come, more miracles will happen to me. All I've been writing in this blog up till now shown me so many miracles I can't express my thanks to God for.

Thanks for letting me breathe.

So so long my followers. Let's meet again soon.

31st March

Last post for March.
I cannot reverse time, I don't wish to.
I haven't posted lately, too lazy.

And I'm scared.

Lots have happened in March for me.
My final exams for Asasi - Hey! I finished my Foundation!

I had a wonderful Dinner with my friends.

I said my farewells to my friends from UiTM.

What's next?

I applied for UPU already.
I'm going for TESL all the way, 

but TESL can only be applied for two slots only. :(

Other slots, please be nice to me.

I will wait patiently for the results.

I'll be flying to the UK soon.

Dear GOD, I'm not ready, but I want this.

Please keep me safe.

I'll enjoy my temporary holiday as much as I can.

Get me back home in time for MEDSI please.

All have been told, what else?

Boyfriend, Oh! Boyfriend. Why can't you hear me?

I get so jelly if you can't come to Malaysia soon.

Singapore, Bangkok, Jakarta... Where else?

I miss you. And I want to see you.

Hurry up and come to where I am.

That is all, thank you March.

Mixed Up

Urghh... I was being too emotional returning to Mawar. Me and my unstable mind. That's what happened - the after effect of my first paper, College Reading 2 ended today and that's only one paper for me. Another  5 to go and I have the Listening & Speaking 2 paper tomorrow. I hope I've study enough. I need to remind myself to get enough sleep because TESL papers can be tough to handle within 2 hours especially for my paper tomorrow. Nobody will dare to sleep in this paper, EVER!

I returned to Mawar, tired, restless... And was given a shock. Let's cut that part out about the shocking news because that shock got me emotional and drained all my positive mood out. But I'm OK now. ^__^

After that, I opened my Yahoo! mail today and received another shocking news. Which made me happy! I guess I won't explain much. I'll show a screen-shot myself.

Hope this will explain much. (^0^)v

Jo Twins?

Sorry that I recently like to post about Boyfriend lately. Excuse me for being a Bestfriend (Boyfriend fan). You see, I have quite a sufficient amount of time to be writing my next chapter for my fanfiction Boyfriend Coffee Shop at Asianfanfics.com but I haven't start writing a thing after that long pause in the middle. I was like, "WHY AM NOT WRITING?! ADJLFKJDADKEJDHQJTSX?!!" I'm not in lost of ideas but I have been playing quite a number of scenes that could possibly fit into the story line to make progress of the plot. So... Why am I not writing? Lazy? Perhaps...! You see, my next chapter will be focusing on the Jo Twins, Youngmin and Kwangmin. These twins.

left: Kwangmin ; right: Youngmin

Boyfriend's visuals of the group and probably the most biased members. In a matter of fact, they are. Hurrah! Hurrah! But not my top biased, in a matter of fact as well. So maybe that's why I'm not in a mood of writing the next chapter. Grr... These two pretty boys capture the hearts of most Kpop fans and most probably the reason Bestfriends love Boyfriend. Unlikely me, I don't prefer them the most. My biased member is Hyunseong, the main vocalist.

In my fanfic, I hope to write the next chapter in objective to fill in the gap where the twins could actually appear as the main characters in the fanfic for once with the original character I made. Because I wrote the fanfic Hyunseong-centered, I want to give each Boyfriend member an equal chance appearing as the main. But where it comes to my next chapter, I feel burdened.

"I'm writing about the two most beautiful boys in Boyfriend for Earth's sake!"

I don't despise them, NO! I'm a loyal Bestfriend and I love them all but yea.. to be honest, I don't favour the Jo twins as much as the other fans out there saying, "Oooh! Youngmin's so beautiful! Cute! Cute! Cutee!!" "Kwangmin oppa is so handsome! I want him to be mine!!!" (My personal reaction: Heck?)

May be because I'm not in a mindset of a 16 year old and younger... I still need to debate whether fans my age fangirl over them as well. Mollayo... Because, these twins are 2 years younger than me so I have a hard time actually falling in love with them. They are just too pure and innocent. I don't see them as my Boyfriends but rather like younger brothers.

In conclusion, this post is actually is my alter ego defining the Jo twins. Oh I always wanted to shrug this of my chest for once. Maybe it would help me a little so I can continue writing that chapter of mine. I hope when it's done, it won't disappoint my readers. OK, that's all for now. Annyeong.

Rainy March

It's not too late to say Welcome to March, is it now?

Today is the last day of lecture. *sighs* I'm not gonna have lectures in a while now.

March has passed two days now... Yesterday, quite a number of people from Asasi TESL did a flash mob of Micheal Jakson's 'Beat It'. It was one of my good friend's idea and we all are accomplices to it. Hehehe~ Why not, it's an awesome idea to have fun for our final days of Asasi. It will make a good memory. We did it in our TESL Square during lunch hours and did we made an earthquake out of it? We disturbed the peace of the studious students and busy lecturers until we got scolded. Okay... Not doing that again... Well... Hell yeah we are! Will keep that in mind...

Today, the real last day of lecture, handing in of assignments, yada yada yada! Woa... Then... Uh... Tests... Then uhh.... Is it me, or everybody else is also feeling that we're going to miss this moment? Cause I think I want to remember this place... This bond between 111 students of Asasi TESL students of Shah Alam. I hope I got the number right. If it's wrong, my bad then...

I'm gonna' miss this for sure. This is taken recently but this is the first view I vividly remember when I first set foot at UiTM, Section 17's campus during my Asasi TESL's interview. Memories...

It's a Cold Winter

Hello to Myself - Ye Eun (Wonder Girls)

Hello, this is February 2012, a very cold winter
Where are you - how close are you
To the dream that I wanted so bad?

Here, I'm still falling and crying again
I'm hurt and tired and have no strength to get up
But you would probably see me and smile.

Hello to myself, hello to myself
Will you comfort me, saying don't cry?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you tell me that I can do it?
Hello hello - don't cry - Hello hello - get up!

How are you - how is it to fulfill your dream?
Doesn't it hurt when you pinch yourself?
Or is it sometimes boring because it's become a normal routine for you?
If you ever get lonely and tired,
will you remember me, who used to dream here?

Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you be happy to the point where your heart overflows?
Hello hello, smile - Hello hello, just like that.

Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you think of me here and smile?
Hello to myself hello to myself
Will you not forget me, who used to dream?

Hello, this is February 2012,
It's a very cold winter...

~*~*~*~*~

In the next 10 years, I will remember this song.
February, is indeed a very cold winter.

Happy 29th of February!

February Drama

February Drama...


I haven't been updating my blog that I came lost in my tracks of past events so briefly I'll tell this tale of mine happened during February. Indeed it has been fulled of drama. "Life has always been a drama," - quoted from my Language and Drama lecturer.

First significant remembered event happened during 3rd February - My Asasi friends and I went to a Lab Rats' 2.0 performance at Kuala Lumpur, somewhere somewhere I can't remember the place but it's definately somewhere new to me. It was after marghrib we set out on our outing to this small room like a huge box. Inside was pitch black, only the light from a projector was lighting up our way to the seats. A diamond shaped stage was in the center of the place as we took our place either in front of it, or at right or left of it.

There were several performances acted out by various of people including my seniors of TESL UiTM Shah Alam including my new lecturer of Drama class. He was the reason why most of us came to watch this performance. He invited us; if he didn't I was already at home watching K-drama or something. *smirks* Okay, I fairly enjoyed all the stage performances and clapped awfully loud for them. Something worth while for me to begin my February drabbles.

photo cr: Hazreen Syaza

26th February... Second significant event - My Readers' Theater. Gosh I was excited truthfully, at the same time nervous. I never thought I was going to be so nervous for other people would come and watch me dramatize on stage. Usually I would feel calm before if I did it with friends, but it was different. How? Was is it because it was assessed? Or was it because I had a significant role to play in the theater? Nevertheless, it has been done. And I do want to thank Muhd Nurhaziq very much for coming to support me. He came all the way to INTEC from Puncak Alam taking along his assignments with him just to do so. He's really a good friend indeed.

It was challenging indeed, there was a blackout throughout the whole Section 17 campus which delayed out show. It rained heavily making everyone uncomfortable but alhamdulilah around 4.45p.m the electricity power turned back on again and the show began.

My class performed first and in smaller groups we took turned telling our readers' theater stories. We rehearsed several times before so we understood each other stories before and were told how essential how interaction was. When others were telling a story, we had fun even by just watching. What made the theater so happening that before our turn started, some seniors gave up an energy boost and we were all pumped up for the show. Even when the show had ended, with curtains closed completely, we cheered in satisfaction! Either it was for our Drama assessment was completely over or we did our theater our very best or both. We really had fun. :D


So that's the end of my Drama for My Foundation Programme. I'm awaiting for more drama showcases the next stage of my life. May it be the sweetest surprise yet.

Celebrating 19 years of My life

Hi bloggers and random readers who happens to pass by here. From the title, this post I'll be telling about my best 19th Birthday experience. Short, but once in a lifetime 19th Birthday. It won't come around anymore so I'll keep whatever memory I can keep. Alhamdulillah, I feel so blessed.

My Pink Birthday Card - I like pink. :-)

This is a Birthday Card which came for me from my Mother and Siblings from the UK a few days before my Birthday. I intentionally kept it until it was really the 21st of February for me to open it. I'm not overdoing things but I really love to open cards of gifts for my Birthday when it is really my Birthday. It would give a meaningful impact. I love the contents. I can tell how much effort my younger siblings tried to write their wishes in English. Even the messages my mom gave me, brings back a lot of memories. I practically cried.

After reading the card, I called some of my friends using free call. I was too excited using the free call sponsored by Maxis... Thank you Maxis! I forgot how long I took talking on the phone. That's why I slept late. Sorry for my lecturer who scolded me sleeping in class today. -.- I got carried away. Thanks to Muhd Nurhaziq for spending about 45 minutes of his waking time listening and speaking to me. Good friends forever. Not to forget Aqrammul Izzudin who I managed to call as well that night.

At the faculty, I got a little emotional due to my lack of sleep and overload of stress. Yelling and stomping my feet just about everywhere. I like all the little wishes from my TESL-mates and I was overwhelmed with the Birthday Song played and sang by the piano by my classmates from PI0202D. Thank you so much. I cried again. It seems I'm crying a lot today.

All my classmates for Semester 2 in Angsana Hall practicing Readers Theater. 

Another thanks to Azeem Alias. The previous photo above, I took it using his camera he lent to me. I missed taking pictures of people randomly like this so I took the opportunity to use a camera to take pictures which might be memories to me someday. He also became my company through the phone when I went to Section 7, Shah Alam to buy my Birthday Cake. Yes, I bought my own Birthday cake this year. It looks weird but I can't help having one. I'm so used during my family members' Birthdays we will at least have cake. I feel incomplete without it.

Thank you Secret Recipe.

OKAY! Moving on to some random gifts.

I didn't get gifts which I can physically hold or touch, more to visual but it never fails to lit a spark upon my face. I received YouTube videos from my mother. Two different Birthday songs, I favour one of them that I think I have to share. I cried so much after listening to it. *cries so much today* The lyrics are so deep, mother! I love you sooo much.

Corrinne May - The Birthday Song

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way
To say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy birthday my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul
You've known to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of the child within your eyes

Happy birthday my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
It's such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true.

Two more gifts from friends. I received them just now through Facebook. I love them guys! Thank you Syahira Fateha and Sora Unni~~!!!

From Syahira Fateha, you know how much I love you; and Hyunseong oppa~ Teehee... ;D

Even though so simple but you have read my heart girl! Sora unni~ I love you. No girl would love more than to have a Boyfriend for their present! xD Get it? Boyfriend. Eh eh eh~~

p/s: I also want to thank every single wall post that my FB friends had posted on my wall today. Thank you, thank you, thank you! ;D

I'm sincerely touched by every single gift given to me today and I shall continue to be grateful.

I guess that's almost about it. Only a few more hours until the 21st of February will come to an end in 2012. February has 29 days this year. It's a leap year at present. Time is mysterious, humans are as well. Age has no matter but scientist put it as a measurement for people as they grow. I am 19 now, I hope there will be changes; I expect them but I can't expect too much. Allah will guide me, InsyaAllah.

RANDOM 19

I'm going to challenge myself writing #19 random facts about myself before the clock strikes 12 tonight. Happy long night for me before my life span anniversary. Yeah! Me and my not-so-spared random time. Be ready for random facts about myself.

#1 - I'm a dreamer.
How come? There's a lot of things I dream to be but not having them realizing. I gave up some dreams because I know they are too silly to achieve and some I still hang onto but I won't put forth serious effort to make them true until the time comes. Besides that, I also dream to do things such as travelling the world. Maybe I can still hang onto that dream as well. ;D

#2 - Quiet and shy?
Quiet is me. I'm not used to talk a lot because I don't have much to say. Or maybe I'm just scared to talk. And there's time I talk really slow or soft because of shyness. Hmm...

#3 - I'm doubtful.
I doubt a lot of things that I don't wish to mention.

#4 - Baby-face
A random physical fact. Some of my friends say I have a baby-face attribute.

#5 - Cute voice?
If I had friends talking over the phone, they would ask, "Aichan, do you always sound like right now? It's cute." It goes for both boys and girls. Thanks lots of you but now I'm shy. Shyness overload!

#6 - Easily distracted.
I can't focus to something long enough such as assignments or a subject and would likely to doze off to another world. I can be found not listening or drawing or doing something else rather than what I'm supposed to be doing.

#7 - Lucky number.
Yeah! Lucky number 7, 3 and 21. Love these numbers lots.

#8 - Introvert.
Hopelessly yes. But I'm not afraid to do outdoor activities.

#9 - Writing.
I write loads of narratives and fanfictions. But I have never finished a series ever! Just yet, at least... Hope to do so soon...

#10 - Like Difference.
My favourite difference of my life is myself. People have it hard understanding myself. For example, I was asked why I took up TESL when I used to study Engineering studies in High School plus my parents are from science-based workers. Well, that's how different I am. Jjang!!

#11 - Fashion blind.
Even though I'm a girl, I fail at matching up my clothes, shoes, whatever. I don't even have the confidence to shop for clothes. I even spend so little for things as such.

#12 - Emotional.
I'm easily emotional when things happen but due to growing up, I've learnt to control it now. I've learn to keep my head up and stay positive. Alhamdulillah.

#13 - Book-a-holic
I think I've mentioned so many times before how I just love books. I have so many at home that I have not enough place to organize them. I've have tons of novels unread just waiting to be unwrapped from their plastic wrapper. Yes, still brand new!

#14 - Oblivious to mention Love.
I'm not sure if I am. Love is a strong word to describe and not sure how it works. But I'm sure that Great One will soon show what it is to me soon enough.

#15 - Not good with Money
I guess I tend to spend it without calculating how much I've used. I'm not a good bargainer and have no sense of prices on products. As long it's high in quality, it's consider something good to buy when we need it in my opinion.

#16 - Dislike horror movies
I'm scared of them. That's all. Entertainment should stay entertaining, not scary.

#17 - Dislikes Vegetables
Uhh... I got a problem eating them. -.-

#18 - I have an Online family.
I think I'm happy knowing them since back during MySpace days until today. There's my Oniichan, Shiachan and Neechan. Also... BF admins, Syahira Fateha and Farah Liyana. Bestfriends! OKAY! But my proud Online family had to be the first 3 mentioned names. XD

LASTLY
#19 - Simple-minded.
As mentioned earlier, I can be very surprising but for those who have known me well, I'm a very easy person to read. I dislike complications so I tend to be direct and simple. As a result, whatever I do, is simply because I do. It can turn out for the better or the worse according to His will.

This is me; younger, more naive than ever! How long has is been since I was so small still smiling without a care of the world. When I was small, I believed when I smiled the whole world would smile back at me and it did. 

This is me now. Diverse and changing everyday.

Company

These two videos became such a company to me. Oh, thanks... And what not. Jjang!!


K. Will - I Need You live on M Countdown.

I shed tears watching this video for the first time. I listened to the song before through the MV but hearing him sing it live, the energy just reached me, you get what I mean after playing it through. I can tell he sang it with all his heart with lots of meaning. Oh well, who knows but I can feel it!!! This person a great singer, Daebak! :D

Youngmin's 6th UCC on Boyfriend W Academy

My reaction changes every time watching this and this is the first time Youngmin ever appealed to my interest. I thought he was only this person who only needs to look good in front of the camera; he still needs to though, but through this UCC, I might change my mind. It must took a whole lot of pride to do this Aegyo. Aww~~ xD


Heehee~ My mom called today. I guess I hope for something better tomorrow. InsyaAllah. :)

February Drabbles

"Why is it that you like February so much?"

". . . . . . . ."

"Except for the fact your Birthday is in this month."

*giggles* "Yea, aside from that. I guess February to me is magic."

"How come it is magic?"

"Lots of good things might come to me in this month. But I always wonder, among all the months in a year, why February has less than 30 days?"

"You have a point, why February?"

Random conversation with a friend. I still consider February as my favourite month no matter what others might say, or even it sounds childish. Hehe. I still find February magical. Only February has 28 or 29 days in a month. It would change every 4 years. So yea... My thoughts are quite simple actually.

For this entry, I'm not really sure what to write. I'm slowly moving towards an uncertain time where I will soon graduate from Foundation. I'm moving towards an uncertain time where I must say goodbye to my first TESL mates. I'm moving towards an uncertain time where I will fly to where my Mother and siblings are in Manchester. I'm moving towards to that uncertain time where I will become a Degree student, Insya-Allah.

The cycle repeats itself where I have to take another written test and an interview to successfully achieve my goal in life. I have to pray and hope all over again; feel that uncertain feeling that I might win or lose. But I guess no one can so sure except God Al-Mighty. This is all a human can feel uncertain about and has to learn to put all faith and trust into Him.

Happy February Everyone. :)

Aja Aja Fighting!

How time flies... I know I haven't been updating my blog. Have no ideas actually.

Walking, staking my life up to the limit through January and in just in few more hours we shall welcome February; my Favourite Month. Ngehehehe~~~

Tic tok tic tok... Before I know it, my lecturer said, "You only have less than 5 more weeks in Foundations." Then my mind went blank. "Seriously Miss? Like... Seriously?" I muttered to myself. Oh yes, time flies for the lazy procrastinating person who has loads of assignments to be done in that amount of time. So I'll keep this post short and tell a long story next time. Teehee~ :D

Today, I enjoyed my dramatization, finish Radio Drama script, printed CTU poster(handed in tomorrow and now currently finding online articles for an individual writing assessment. Woohoo! It never ends.

For all those Asasians and Matrix students out there. Never give up just yet! Let's do our best til the end and pray for a successful final. May Allah guide us, grant us great rewards Insyallah. May we achieve our goals for the best Degree program of our choice. Amin...

Best Comment Ever!

THIS IS LIKE THE BEST COMMENT SOMEONE HAS EVER WROTE TO ME! AND I JUST WANT TO PRINT SCREEN IT AND SHARE ON MY BLOG BECAUSE THIS PERSON JUST MADE ME SO HAPPY READING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. OH GOD, HE ONLY KNOWS HOW HAPPY I AM. IT MAKES ME FLOW TEARS OF HAPPINESS TO KNOW SOMEONE ACTUALLY LIKES WHAT WE CREATE AND ASKS FOR MORE.

Even if this is only a fanfic I wrote on Asianfanfics.com, I enjoy writing it, sometimes staying up late just to convey all my ideas of imaginary people and scenes into words. What more can an author ask for, if not the compliments of the readers. I have a big imagination, I like to write what I think or dream of. My mother used to tell me I'm a great story-telling; I want to believe in that. Writing fanfics about K-pop idols might sound childish or cliche but it proves to give me a chance to enhance the writing and reading abilities of my own to try to convey and decipher the messages within.  

There will come a time when you are given a job, either you invent something, create an art or even help something to work. When one appreciates what you do; something you might know or not know you're good at, it's very happy news to celebrate. Treat it as God returns the favor of your hard work and be grateful to God as well that you're still capable of doing something more in your life.

MY BOYFRIEND ASIANFANIC: Boyfriend Coffee House

Capturing Beauty

I'm not the best person to define beauty, but at least I can share some photos I took that I think turned out beautiful. (Even though I only used my Nokia C3)

Basically, I just took some random photos during my time at Nur Lembah Pangsung the other day when I went out camping with my Asasi friends. Some photos to encapsulate in the minds of many so that we won't forget the time we had there. Maybe some of you might not have the time to stop and look around how beautiful Hulu Langat was but it has been that beautiful all the time. At least for me. Hope these photos can make you smile, even just a little.

Subahanallah! God gives us sight to see all of this. To know how to see what's around us. Care to stop and take a moment to embrace the beauty in every detail God has created? Let's start now because beauty is within the eye of the beholder. Thanks for passing by here.

Leg Injury

For one whole week, my leg injury is killing me.

OK, my leg doesn't look this bad but I'm having a rough time as it is to keep it secured so it can fully recover back to it's normal state which indeed I don't know when and I wish pretty soon it will!

Didn't I tell you how I got injured? OK, I got careless and got myself into a motorcycle accident on my way back from KLCC the other day meeting with the Admins of BF LOVE BF FB page. To avoid running over someone, I break very abruptly and crashed near a bus stop. Yea, it hurts. People tried to help me that day, but I nicely decline for any further assistance since I know I can't afford to trouble any more people than they are; even for my parents in a matter of case. My mother isn't in Malaysia currently and I don't know if my father was home by the time I was on my way home. So, like it or not, I picked up my messed up motorcycle and with my injuries and whatnot, I rode my motorcycle home. It wasn't that far.

Back home: Yea, my dad was already home. I didn't tell him I got myself hurt on my motorcycle at first when I entered the house but after examining myself, taking off my torn jeans, I finally found my worst nightmare. My knee was bleeding like crazy. A big spot on my knee was bleeding. It hurt, stung really bad when I tried to clean it so I had to bravely face my dad and ask for treatment. I can't get a small bandage as I used to. When I told my father, he wasn't mad at me or something, but I can tell he was worried. He helped me patching up my injury and told me to take some medicine to kill the pain away. I did everything that he told me to do and get a lot of rest. Since then, I wasn't moving a lot these days. Even after the mid-sem break, I'm still attending class at UiTM.

I like the concern and my friends helped me throughout this week of my suffering. Yes, I was suffering a little when I can't stand the hurt of my knee when I had to stand in the bus sometimes and during drama class, I had to carefully know where I was moving. (Did I act good or what? >///<) And during breaks, when I went to pray, I had friends to help me show how to pray while sitting. I need to get a chair. Thank you so much. I'm very grateful for everyone who has helped so far and tomorrow I'll be joining a Team-Building session with the Asasi TESL students somewhere near Kuala Selangor, if I'm not mistaken. There will be talks on the first day and some outdoor activities on the second day. I wish to go jungle-tracking, but I need to see if I'm in a suitable condition in order to do so on that day. Pray that I won't trip and fall, that I'm getting better everyday which I am. Alhamdulillah. :D

I wish to do and say more. This is enough. Thank you.

Hello 5th January

[I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST THIS YESTERDAY BUT THE WIFI SUCKS AT COLLEGE, SO YEA...]
Now and then. People.

Today is the 5th or  January, obviously. Hehehe~ Today I'm wishing Happy Birthday to my two room-mates: Fatin and Hazreen. Fatin, a Foundation of Law student is my room-mate, for this semester. Hazreen, a Foundation of TESL is my room-mate for last semester. Both I equally cherish. ^^ So, Happy Birthday the both of you! I bet you won't read this but what the heck! >//< I'm just kinda' happy that I can still write about this.

Next, when we're talking about Birthdays, the first thing came to mind for me was presents. Yeahh! Who loves presents? Anyone does! It never gets old. If a present is given on a Birthday, it must been treasured very carefully the rest of our lives, right? But then, what about all those other presents? What presents? The givings that people give when it's not your Birthday. Or what has God given you. I'm just saying, it can be nice to have something given to you, no matter where or when it is. Most importantly to be thankful for it. God has given life to us. So every year when the time comes that you remember the day you were born, say, Alhamdulillah. You are still breathing, eating healthily, playing enjoyably and learning comfortably. Does anybody thank any of that? Not just on your Birthday, but everyday...

Birthdays are important, yes. When it is celebrated, the person being celebrated feels cherished, feels loved. Those tiny, many wishes are very special to them. Those verbal things that helps to enlighten the soul, can be a powerful thing. Not the presents, I suppose now. They can only be kept as proof that, somebody cares but those won't last forever. Those wishes, those special words transferred between two people can effect many and will continue showing effects for the rest of our lives, perhaps. InsyaAllah. Allah is Loving and Merciful.

# Question of the day: What do you wish to be given a present of on your Birthday?

For me, I want a Polaroid Camera right now. >///< Some photos I wish to take and have in an instant would be so niceee right now.

Jealous much?

A Pink and BOYFRIEND collab performance.

This performance has given a surprise to a lot for Bestfriends (Boyfriend fans) , giving a tease; making them way too jealous. I'm not sure if it's true or just faking it. But don't be sad though. Personally in my own reaction, I thought twice about how much effect this will give to the fans because I enjoyed it a lot and I still do. I can't help but press the replay button.

A Pink and BOYFRIEND did an amazing performance, no doubt. That's all to it, and there's no reason to argue and be jealous over it because that's their job as performers. And if they were to pair up in the future, I guess I won't be any jealous, they aren't dating for real. [Still angry because seeing Hyunseong and Bora too close with each other. Damn you HS.] I understand jealousy because it's just another of human's nature as well. But these K-pop idols, who are they to take action of these feelings. They can't do anything much about how their fans feel but to just entertain.

The pairings (in the video):

Donghyun & Yookyung

Hyunseong & Eunji

Jeongmin & Naeun

Youngmin & Bomi

Kwangmin & Chorong

Minwoo & Hayoung

Namjoo was by herself.

I love Boyfriend + A Pink!!

Oh! The insanity!

Any A Pink fans out there? I just became one. :D

QUESTION GAME #1

I did say I was going to play a game with you guys right? It's called the "Question of the Day" Game!! Something like that. So presenting, Question of the day!

Q: What is your favourite moment in 2011? Tell a story of your MOST favourite event.

SO , there it is. I'm going to list some of my favourite and memorable moments in 2011. Things I will remember and bring along with me to next year, 2012! :D :D :D I'm so excited to meet 2012.

Fav moment #5
It might be my first time attending an Anime Festival. Mine was the Animangaki.

Fav moment #4
Family going to the United Kingdom. Most memorable because I went to KLIA to send them off. I cried though. ;(

Fav moment #3
The day I pass my Driving Test and people said it was hard to pass. They had to take it two or three times to get is over with.

Fav moment #2
PLKN for the win! It happened for the first 3 early months of 2011 and I still remember how much it gave impact on myself and my life. I feel connected with Malaysia a whole lot after that.

Last but not least...... *drumrolls*

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Saving the best for last... !

Favourite moment #1!!!
It was hard for me to decide but I guess it has to be this moment for sure!

The moment where I get my results from UPU saying: "Congratulations, you successfully accepted into UiTM's Foundation of TESL." Oh yea! Short Epic Happy moment right there.

 I remember the happiness that shot out of me on that day when I received the results of my interview and UPU application. I remember the tears that automatically rolled down my cheeks for the gratefulness that I felt for God granting me this honor. Even though I felt like a failure, even though I lost hope many times, and I still do, somehow, this was my gateway towards a new life. This single moment where my dreams are slowly becoming visible to me, 2011 has shown me what I wished for.

# I'm sure, this is the one moment I cherished the most in 2011. Thank you for everything ALLAH.

So, may 2012 be another wonderful year of miracles. :D

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