How Childish.

I've been thinking a lot, again. I wonder if I may continue my studies in Form 6? If I get into SMTG. HAHAH! I just love that school. Unbelievable. But then, I got an offer to study at Selangor's Matriculation College. I didn't spelled Selangor, SELANAGOR now right? Sheehs, you guys are freaking me out. I have a typo problem with my keyboard now. Anyway, what if? What if I enter Form 6? I just love school. What a lame excuse for continuing my studies. It's not all fun and game it is now? For me, it doesn't matter where I study. As long I keep on moving towards my dream.

Don't worry about place.
Don't worry about the people.
Just focus on the moment.

Isn't that right?

JPJ test

I got loads of comments of how hard it was for my friends to pass the JPJ test at their accociate Driving Academies. But walawehh! I PASSED. Believe it! On my first try. Hard enough to believe, isn't it? And it took me a whole day too. So I'm glad it was worth the wait on an empty stomach. Geez~!

I had to take two tests okay. The first one was the motorcycle test where I had to complete the whole motorcycle track. I had loads of tries and failures while riding the motorcycles there. Plus acciedents to go with it. Harsh. But I can't believe how I nailed it today.

Next was the car test. I had to complete the inside track first which was part 2 of the test. When was test 1? HAHA. Theory thingy, I think? I was in Session 2, Number 43. So I got to watch a few driving students before me and hey, some were awful to be honest and did I had to say it out loud in a scarsm way? :P Sorry guys but really. They failed. But not all of them. When it was my turn, the "akak" driving before me gave me tips to control the car I was about to enter. Thanks Akak! It was made easy for me and I did well on the Hill and all. I never done parking and 3 Penjuru so well! Awwww. Likey!

Then came the harsh part of my day which was waiting for part 3 of my driving test which going on the highway. Grrr..... I waited tooo loooongggggg for it. It was only near 6.30p.m. I was called for my turn and the when I sat in the car beside the JPJ officer, I didn't glanced at him too long and just did my thing. Oh wait! I noticed I forgot to hon. Did marks deducted for that? HAHA. LOL. Nevermind. Then where exiting METRO, my engine what cut off, I freaked out; inner-self freaking out like hell.

Outer-self ME: *leaned over to see JPJ writes on paper.* <----so unashamed. *whispers to self* Is he gonna' deduct marks again? AHHH...!
Officer: Continue.
 ME: Oh! Okay. *starts engine*

What can we learn from here? Never suspect anything bad and don't give up. Keep on going. So I drive out on the highway just like how I usually drive. The teacher who used to teach me says I'm the kinda type who loves to step on the pedal. (suka tekan minyak. Kira suka bwk laju laa.) But it's dangerous she said if I don't learn to step on the breaks now and then. So that's what I learnt to control yesterday and it went well today. During the drive, I wasn't nervous talking to the JPJ officer as well as he was kinda' friendly.

"You'll do just fine. No one suspected you were taking a test with those driving skills. Congrats."

Can you imagine to be in my place getting a compliment like that? OMGEE. Not only passing the JPJ motorcyle test but the JPJ Car test. I PASSED! AHHHHHH! :D

P licences for me, babeehhh!

Officially Sick

Okay, the title has nothing to do with this picture below. But I am sick. Down with a fever sadly. Despite of that, I got my new Nokia C3-00 mobile phone at Wangsa Walk mall disevening. 

Looking hot you know? These phones.

Maybe not. HAHA. But I have one of these but I'm not well aquainted with it for the meantime so I'll be spending a few of my moments with it later in the morning on how to use these thingies. It has all the basic apps and all; mail, calls, camera, Bluethooth plus it has WiFi. Easy to update FB and Twitter whenever I want. Its keypad is small, so old people; not sacrasm, aren't appopriate  to use this model parhaps. I'm sure this model attracts buyers among teenagers like me to buy em'. Anyway, my model is in light purple. When buying the handphone, I was not sure to pick pink or the purple model because the pink one is very cute but it stands out too much. So I ended up getting the purple one.

That how it goes for me. All in all, it costs RM400+ in total with anything extra to add with it. I like laa. =)

Can I?

Can I see your smile everyday?
Can I hear your laughter down that usual hallway?

Can I speak to you casually?
Or can I listen to your story usually?

Can we hang out at that park we used to go?
Can we say things that doesn't make things so?

I'm not sure what tomorrow brings,
And how we shall meet again.

But one thing is for sure,
You are what I need for whatever cause.

I miss being apart of your life,
I miss being apart of your world.

Why is it so hard to stay in one place?
When we know it's the happiest of all?

You are tourturing me with distance,
Without a single word, I only longed to hear,
I can't bare this feeling anymore,
Because I am just happy to be here: With you.

Okay, I'm just bored like freaking much right now so I'm not sure what I wrote. Seriously, I need a friend to talk to right now. But I don't think I have anything to say. I just want something to break the silence rather than the old dramas on TV and voices on my computer. HECK.

Freaking me out!

Ahhhh! This is freaking me out. It's already 1 o'clock in the morning and I just felt like waiting for this damn link to download into my computer. 90% already! I wanted to play Dreamer-RO with Shiachan. Why Shiachan..? HAHAH! But still, this is for you, ok? We lepak-lepakking again, you know.


WHATTHEFISHH right? blehh!

LAUGH OUT LOUD

YOU GUYS ARE JUST HILLARIOUS! The Group Pengawas SM Teknik Gombak needs to be Rated 18 because of the discussion of the Push & Pull Theory conducted by Aqrammul Izzudin and Ku Zahirruddin. I don't know why we acted like this but let's hide behind the reason: "We're growing up." AHAHA. What a joke?

We might laugh about a lot of things but this is the stupidest thing ever to laugh about. And I'm just tagging along on whatever they were saying. OMGEE. This is absolutely terrible if the juniors read this. Bleekkkk! Well, I had a good laugh. We all did. NGEE.

100+ comments in 5 hours

It all started with a post. MY POST. I've join many Groups in FB. Not really, I was invited to be exact and I was really curious of what's becoming of these groups. The only one active are none. We tried to keep up a conversation but what the heck are we blabbering about? So I tried posting my thoughts on one or two groups. One is in the SMT Gombak Prefect's group which most I commented crap with Ku Zahiruddin and Aqrammul Izzudin. I miss those guys alot.

Then I really liked this post I done in SK Taman Setia. It was a school I went to from Standard 1 until March Standard 5.  I took some screenshots on my favourite post comments. It just started of with an old classmate of mine remembering who I was. Then another came in asking if I remembered him but I can't. HAHA. We were like: "Why can't you remember me?!" "I DON'T KNOW!! DON'T FREAK ME OUT!" So, more comments coming in and all I could do was laugh and smile reading these comments from my old classmates. I think they are. HEHE. Love you guys laa.

LAUGH OUT LOUD. >__<

HOT TOPIC? Be Malaysians

There's a topic that peeks my interest to debate on. Sheeesh. teringat time2 debate kat sklh. So, this afternoon, I watched the replayed Akademi Fantasia concert yesterday and it was a whole lot better than last week's preformances. Sorry, I missed watching it last night. Then I got interested with the comments that might be posted on the AF9 FB page so I went to look them up. There's about thousands of comments. I think I won't even have time until I die to read them all so I opened the comments about Erul ONLY. Hihi. And as I expected, all of his fans are all Korean and Japan die-hard fans; just like myself right now. Most of them compliment his preformance that night.

What really peeked my interest here was, some of them would comment:

"We live in Malaysia la Bro. Speak Malaysia sudaa laa."
"What's the rush with changing the lyrics to Korean man? Kau tu orang Malaysia, nyanyi lagu melayu la."

 Panaass je bce komen tu. So unmatured la Malaysians. In my point of view, Erul is an amazing singer, no doubt. I truly understand why you guys wanted to comment like that because if your love for Malaysia. But you guys are forgetting, Malaysia is a multi-race country, multi-culture with multi-languages. I don't see what's so wrong if we support people like Erul who can speak multi-languages because one day when he becomes a successful singer after AF, he can promote Malaysian music to other countries. So, to those who kept on commenting that he should only stick to Malay songs should change your opinion.

PLKN has also taught me, a good employee in a company in the BUDAYA KERJA module is someone who can speak multi-languages. We cannot rely on people who can speak in Malay only these days. Even the increasing population on Malaysians can count the really good speakers in Malay and English; of cause our country will keep on finding more talents who can talk more than our National language plus English. Someone has an advantage if they can speak more just Malay and English nowadays. That's why I respect people who can speak multi-languages; like ERUL!!! Even at PLKN, lots of people would love to learn to speak a new foriegn language to them. It won't hurt.

In a nutshell, I just hope to those who comment about how Malaysians should act; think about what have you've done so far for Malaysia. If Erul has the talent to sing in other languages, let him. Remember how Linda AF2 sang in Spanish during the finals? No one wants to freak out about that, huh?! Dear Malaysians, try to be more matured in judging others because we are all that Malaysia's got to support each other. That's all for today 1Malaysia. Choww.

ps: pantangg orang berbahasa asing sikit, nak melenting. Yg rmai2 minat FIFA world cup, F1 bagai tak bising plak. Korang cemburu! CEMBURUUU dgn ERUL laa. Gedikkkk.. (inner-self. jgn layan)

Say it.

This is late of me to be writting this post seemingly I was really excited I finished my interview with UiTM. Ahh.. It was held at UniTEC in Section 17 Shah Alam. When I got there around 1p.m. with my father, I was like, "Wow, I'm back at school." HAHA. The faculty is like a school bulding. So I won't feel too bad going to Asasi huh? LOL. If I ever get into. Amiinn..

I was rushing to get ready for everything. Urgh, what a pain dismorning when it rained cats and dogs. The test starts with a written test. It was like an exam hall slipted into two divisions. I was in Panel 3 so I took my test in Cendana Hall. The test was an hour long and I had to complete 15 comprehension questions and a 250 words long essay. I was glad it has comprehension but when I started answering, it looks kinda' hard. I read the text and OMG! I can't even understand half of it. I felt like I really wanted to faint. I never thought comprehension can be this difficult. The essay part, taramm jehh! It was a factual essay and I'm not used to writting factual essays when I always chose to write fiction all the time. But it's a general question asking: What are the benifits of social networking like FB, MS and Friendster to teenagers? Then I thought.... (10 minutes later of scribbling.) I HAVE NO IDEA.

Being optimistic, next was the most feared interview. My legs were shaking the whole time I waited but my name was first in line. Ini lah nasib org2 yang namanya mula dgn huruf A kn? But because I was delayed from my abcense to the washroom and I need to resort my file, a few other participants were interviewed first before me. So I had more time to relax. Then my named was called and calmly I went it. Mostly they ask about ourselves in my case, the interviwer asked where do I live?

Me: I live in Taman Sri Gombak in the Gombak distric near Batu Caves.
Interviewer: So how was it like during the Thaipusam festival?
Me: bla bla bla.. tak ingat ckp apa. Laju sgt aku ckp rsenya. haha.
Interviewer: Have you ever went to Batu Caves during the festive season?
Me: No. Not yet.
Interviewer: You're telling me, you lives near Batu Caves all this while and you never went there?
Me: (Inner-self: LOL. I'm not Hindu, I'm not sure what to do if I interrupt.) I wish I have before. I never had a chance. Haha.

Okay, in an interview is most likely not to giggle nervously but laugh and show you enjoy the interview is an exception right? Overall, that's how my interview went. To my friends who will be having an interview soon, goodluck. The only advice I can contribute is "Just be prepared." All the best.

Be Enlightened!

INNER ME: AHH yes. Be enlightened Ainul Aiman! Just because you don't have the KPLSPM interview, doesn't mean it's the END OF THE WORLD.
REAL ME: It would be, if I don't nail this interview too.
INNER ME: You're a smart person in your grade for English. You've prove yourself enough.
REAL ME: May...be?
INNER ME: That's the spirit Ainul Aiman! FIGHTING! You can always find a way to take the KPLSPM interviews another time.
REAL ME: And get rejected two times in a row.
INNER ME: Ahh... Bummer. :(

I shall enlighten myself a little bit more. Positive, huh?  I was kinda' happy to be informed of this. But to acknowledge that my competitives are no ordinares is a big thing to worry isn't it? Besides me, my friends from my PLKN camp and old schools are taking the interviews too. The same one I'm taking to be worrying about. What I meant by SCHOOL(s); yes, my many old schools from Primary to High school. I have two Primary schools to be exact and two High schools. Cool right? I'm kinda frustrated how small this world can get when I'm gonna see all my old friends again. I think?

But there is always an advise I never took seriously up until now: "You worry too much. Worry about yourself and focus on your goal." Ainul Aiman.... FIGHTING! And GOODLUCK to everyone who is taking their own interviews on whatever and whereever. Do the BEST! :D

Korean CRAVINGS

This is what I've been fussing about on FB and about. HAHA. AWW.. Kim Hyun Joong <3 LOL.

At first, I never had intrest watching anything related to Korea. Korean music, Korean bands and K-dramas. I remember the first bunch of people who are actually Korean fanatics and Japan fanatics alike. They were some friends I had in SMK Hillcrest but I was never into it so I was left out most of the time. The idea of watching K-Dramas now is thanks to Nur Lidiya, Nur Muwaddah and Nur Syazwani. I MISS THEM. Friends of 5E4. HAHA. In 2.5 days, I managed to watched the complete series of "Playful Kiss" directed by Hwang In Roe. Genius. I watched this recomandations of Lidiya. :) This story has many versions made by the Japanese and Thaiwanese. Did I spelled that right? Thaiwan-ese? Ehhh. Eiiww. Okay. But what the heck? The Korean version is so much better and I have to admit the main actors are super cute too. Especially Baek Seung Jo acted out by Kim Hyun Joong. I squeeled most of the time watching the episodes throughout. I think there is no way I'm watching this with my family. I'll feel embarassed because the drama is so darn cute. Awwaawww. HAHA.

I just can't take my eyes off Kim Hyun Joong. The one playing the heroin, Oh Ha Ni, Jung So Min is also super darn cute. And so they act so good together. OMG. People, you gotta' admitt that. How can we resist the power of KAWAII-ness?!

CUTEEE~ <3

You Know What?

I am down in the dumps. Utterly sad. Very disaoppointed. I'm really sure I have to blame myself for not knowing this. It's hard for me to accept the fact I missed a golden oppurtunity to take the KPLSPM interviews which some of my friends are buzzing about. Harsh. I didn't had the chance to register. I haven't had the clue how. No one helped me. Or maybe I just didn't help myself. I hate it. Very much. I'll find something to brag about. See ya'. FULLSTOP.

AF9 at AU2

Second story about AF9. Don't hate me!!! HAHA.

Today, I went to Jusco AU2 with my mom. Just hanging out. I was utterly surprised why on earth the AF diaries are in AU2? I didn't get what Aznil meant when he said something about Jusco AU2 but when I got there with my mom, I finally understand. But I still didn't believe it. The whole set was there. There was a special space doubled-storied glass windowed set for the AF9 participants to hold out their practices for the upcoming concerts. There was everything: the dancing floor, the singing room, the piano; of cause, the sitting room. But it looks so narrow. SEMPIT!!!

It was not fair! They looked trapped like being in a petting zoo or something. I rather have them in their old banglow which the previous AF participants always do their practices. I felt kinda' awful seeing them like that. Eventhough I kinda' went blushy when I saw Erul infront of the mirrowed dancing floor showing his moves. My wish came true so fast.... Awwwwawaww! <3 LOL

Oh! Oh! Oh! I also met an old bestie of mine today. Aleysha Khalina. I miss youuu. :3

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Akadami Fantasia 9

 Yea! Here it is. HAHA. LOL I dunno what to say actually. AF9 just broadcasted it's way on the television and I watched as the 1st Consert of AF9 insipered a fresh new light for the viewers. What I am left to say when I found out this will be the last season of Akademi Fantasia, speechless. It brings me back to when I first became a big fan into watching the AF seasons year after year. I wanted to become part of AF myself when I was little. I think it was 9 years ago, the first season ended, I made up my mind, when I am old enough, I'm gonna' enter the AF audition myself and make a the next big thing for myself. Which is a star for AF9. I was sooo naive and embarrassed when I used to scribble in my little notebook my plan to become a successful singer in the future. I guess that all changed now. I don't want to become a singer, do I? LOL.

Enough flashback. What do I think of AF9 without me. Aceeeyyhh. HAHA. When they introduced the new participants, they all have unique backgrounds and reasons for becoming apart of AF. From the very few who preformmed that night, I really liked Afif, Amir and Kay's preformances the best. I don't see any sparkle in the girls preformances yet. They're horrible to be honest. But it's the first week, so give em' a chance.

Lastly, I have to give my support to Erulll!!! I am suprised myself when I see this Korean loving guy steps on the AF stage for the first time live on TV, I squeeled so loudly like a crazy fan when I don't know this guy at all. Even my mom was quite shocked herself. I don't know guys. Now I'm just hysterical fan of Erul right now. Kinda' disappointed myself when Erul didn't show off his moves for this concert when he is known for his dancing talent for the INTRO concert. So, chayok chayok Erul.



Because someone put sense into me to support local music, I opened my eyes to watch AF again. Goodluck AF9!

Writting Styles

I was inspired by the post Haziq wrote and decided to write this post as a reply. Okay, I agree not everyone can write good posts or even posts that brings benefits to everyone. It's really hard to satisfy everyone in this world so NO. I'm not gonna' lecture more about what I might oppose to Haziq's ideas. I'm sure he has good reasons and I have my own.

What I want to share with bloggers today, everyone have their own writting style and how they manage their blogs. Everyone have their own personal reasons in how they create their blogs. This reminds me of a friend named Kimiko; doesn't go by her true name, she writes blogs because she thinks it of her online diary. At first, I thought it was wrong because if everything you do and think is foretold online, life doesn't seem more private anymore and people will disagree with how we do things more. But on second thought, what were blogs created for anyway? I also write about my daily life, so why must I prevent her from doing so too? And there are people who write about their oppinions in life. Some thing happened to them and they write what they thought should be changed or be best for it. When I read these kinda of blogs, there are more thoughts to improvise than to improve. Do you get what I'm saying? You can figure out these kinda' people are still a little bit unsatisfied with their lives or the world happening around them. Maybe with posting what they were thinking would help to support the world to be a better place. What happen to the idea or making people a better person in a community?

So the point is simple people. Everyone can post blogs. It is not restricted to anybody just because they have different ideas or opinions. It's the fun in blogging. Don't just write but also read. Reading other people's blogs is a good thing because at least we would know, the difference in ourselves and expand our view of the world around us.

When I reread the posts I've been posting up till now, I know for the first year 2009 I was in a big depression but climbing up the months till 2010, a lot of things revolved. I thought, won't people get bored hearing all my deppresions up to now? I change how I write, how I decribe my happenings. I think what's important isn't judging how we write or how others write. Just write blogs fairly. There is nothing to lose to write good things for yourself and for others. Just remember, people will be reading your blogs so make them simple and clean. Also to remember to write in your own style because people love orignality.

What drives me to keep writting my blog is to enhance my writting skills in English and to hope my readers get beeter in English too. Yes, this is my kinda writting style that I also use in my essays and stuff. So why not? Start bulding up your style too. Goodluck.

Hello RANDOM PERSON

So I just got this call through my cellphone from some RANDOM PERSON and I'm not sure why. It's a woman notherless so I wasn't that freaked out. And she sounded like a nice person. Not like any stalker whatsoever. Why am I thinking negetively? I guess it's the effect of watching Detective Conan too much. Anyway, I think I heard she was calling from the Brithish council (ASA) not really sure she said ASA. She was asking me if I wanted to continue my studies in the UK of some sorts. I did go to KLCC to this UK education fair a few weeks ago to find out if there's a College I can go to to further my studies and yes, she mentioned I was interested to take on English in the UK. That kinda' information was correct about me.

She asked me a few other questions like, why am I interested to further my studies in the UK? What are my plans after I I got my results? And as I explained futher about her inquiries, she was kinda' confused why I wanted to enroll in a University. She thought I needed to continue STPM. So She asked about STPM and why must I wait for IPTA results and my choice of education in my near future. Hey, it's not easy being a SPM graduate with all these choices of further studies, you know? But then, she understood perfectly what I meant and wished me the best of luck then hanged up the phone.

That was a good talk after all.

SECRET ADDICTION

OH! New bloggie. This blog is in Malay so yea.. I dunno. I want to add a little more space in the internet for my heart and feelings to be heard out? Don't worry. It's not all mushy mushy stuff like dat. Read and follow kay?

Here's the link: http://sukasukasangat.blogspot.com/. TQ. :D

Drive

Today I didn't drive at all! Hwuuaahhh! and I was waiting to go on the highway. Of cause I would  drive into someone. I'm not pro at driving yet. I just took a few rounds on the motocycle and stop. Looks back.... dot dot dot...?

I saw my senior + neighbour + friend, rode a motorcycle off and out of the track into a bunch of other motorcycles. I was like, OH NO! WTFISHH? Not only she ride into some motorcycles in such high speed; I repeat, awsome speed, one of the motorcycles's side mirror just broke. DAMN. Sorry to say, it broke. It's an accident. Then I thought. How would I felt if I was the owner of that unfortunate motorcycle. How would I responded to the student riding the motorcycle? I don't know. I would feel very frustrated. I'd be mad. But it was an unfortunate matter. The student must felt bad as well. She could have got hurt and felt humilliated in front of many people attending the driving academy.

How would you respond?

Done Now?

Okay. Just a little goodbye to the good times I had last week. Last Tuesday, I went to Midvalley with some friends of mine from PLKN. How did I get into this mess? Well, we just received our SPM results and my good friend Ieka sms'ed me asking about my results and somehow ended up inviting me to go out to Midvalley with some friends. Diela was also invited. Another good friend of mine from PLKN. At first we decided to go out on Sunday but things got in the way so we postponed it on Tuesday. I had no idea who was coming along until I was there.

Yea, so the geng met up. First it was like Bravo-rians all together with some Charlie members. HAHA. But Ieka, Diela and I + Aimuni got kinda seperated with the first lot of people came. So we decided what to do. I was begging, "Plz oh plz decide! My shoes are killing me~!" The idea was to watch a movie but I kept it to myself first so we made up our minds to play a round of BOWLING! "Not a bad idea." Ieka got a call from more of our friends who were Man, Saiful and Acab who were coming to join us. Urgh..! The horror.

Nahh, they were just the kinda people who we need to kick in and join the fun. And I just noticed, it's as almost we're the CHARLIE geng all over again. I miss laughing together. I enjoyed the whole day with them. :D

To KLCC last Thursday.

I received a sms from Amy just when arrived home from Midvalley saying lets go to KLCC this Wednesday with Lidiya and Mai. I was like LOL. I just had a day out and I'm going out again? My parents were in disbelief too. I wasn't approved to this at first but when Lidiya sms me about going out to KLCC, she told me it was postponed to Thursday. Da pulakkk... So my parents gave me thumbs up. It was nerve racking when I get two days in a week going out with friends. I hardly get this kind of an oppurtunity. But it was fun! Mai didn't came, and I don't know why. But we enjoyed ourselves getting tickets to watch "HOP" and sight-seeing around KLCC talking almost about everything. I realized how much I talked.

"You talk too much Ainul. What about your story?" I blushed. What story? I have no story. "What about 'that person'?" *teeeeeeeeeet* No comment. HAHA. XD

Seriously, there was nothing to say much but yea. I really had fun. Thanks you guys. I really felt like having friends for the first time around.

XOXO

HAHA! Just like DAT!

Oh OH! Oh!!! I just want my bloggie to be just like that. Hihi. No laa. Okay, I'm kinda'  jealous of my friends blogs because they create their blogs so nicely. Touch-up x2! AHH! I'm not the best blog writter but I really just want to write what's been going on with my life, that's all. It's just that, I don't know how to attract more readers to read my blog. Oh well. What's so wrong into keeping a low profile right? What the Heck. I'll need to work hard if I want this blog to look nice right?

HIHI GEDIK TOL! >D

Just say WHAT?

IPTA and IPTS is really bugging me. My parents has been bugging me about this almost every day now and I don't blame them for doing this to me because I won't be this serious without them around. Maybe if they weren't around I'd be the kinda' person who is more independent? Because i don't like to show off my independent skills to my family much. So maybe that's why my parents haven't had the courage to let me off by my own. But anyway, that's not the point now.

The UPU form is almost at it's due date and I got these IPTS forms keep on filling up my mail box almost everyday. Making me unsure of what I want for myself even more. For the choice of a living for: Money or Intrest? Be interested in money to be safe but that doesn't help when I want to choose a course to study in the near future right? I've been focusing on a course which I can polish my strong traits which is English. And my abilities in writting and story making. I don't know? I have interest of cause in teaching and being a writter. Besides that a screen writter is cool too. What about my abilities in video making. I think of it as a hobby so should I consider on taking it on as a career in the near future? AHHH! This is confusing. I don't want just to do what I like doing just because i want to. I need to think about what I need to do to keep on living and help those around me like my family.

I feel like I don't want to let them doown just because I am 3A's student. Just 3A's guys. What to do??? ;(