Nightmares

I have a few nightmares involving ghosts and scary creatures. But last night, it wasn't actually scary bu had some bad signs. I'm not being superspitious but rather I hope nothing in my dream doesn't come true.

1st part: I live in an apartment with my friend. Obviously the people in my dream are all who I am well-known to. The apartment was neighbouring several other apartments, left, right and in front of us. There's a road between my apartment and the opposite apartment. There's a long electric cable connecting along the road. The people living in the opposite apartment can reach it. If they live in a room high enough. So, I was looking out the window seeing people holding the electic cable. One person(someone I know too), but I rather no speak his name, was holding that cable too long and sorta' played with it got electrified and fell off his balcony to the ground. He was high up, so, you know what would happened. I cried in my friends arms and kept on crying. I was scared.

2nd part: I don't call this scary but... I was buying some sweet dumplings or whatsoever. I like them and made them my favourite food. So I went to this place. For some reason I kept changing my clothes. I'm not sure why. I didn't went to the changing room and changed my clothes in public so I was clotheless for some reason. People there saw me and they didn't laugh or anything but just stare. My clothes were missing and I ran all over the place to find them. After I changed into something. I met with 'someone' accompanying me to the clinic. After a while he left when I saw another 'someone'. I was feeling happy. After the clinic, then only I went to get my dumplings when the dumplings I already have went to waste as someone I don't know this time kinda a bully took them from me and threw them away. He teased me a lot and I hated him. I was following him for some reason when I stumbled into a sweet, cakeshop. I wanted to buy my dumplings but someone wants to treat me cake. I said, "No! I want dumplings!" I glared at the worker because of her friend, (the one who wasted my dumplings) was also working there.

Okay, enough weird for the morning. Happy Last Day of 2010. =]

Fun, isn't it?

It's a comedian drama! Fufuu~

Wardah + Roza. The cute cute and macho.

Just a laugh for today. HEEHEE. I like tricking people into this.

Raudhatus Sakinah

I have confirmed myself I will go to "Himpunan 1000 Jiwa 1 Hati" at Masjid Negara tomorrow. I know it will be a busy day because I still have this Driving lesson tomorrow but I'll try to make it for the registration on time. Insya-allah. I'll be travelling by LRT and bus or taxi to get to Masjid Negara so pray for my well-being. May it be blessed by Allah. Amin.

Freaking theory test

It was cancelled DARN IT. I have wasted almost 4 of my precious hours away from home to achieve nothing? Hate you THEORY TEST. HATE YOU!!!!

Looking on the bright side, I met almost 4 people I know today. The first person was Wan Hafiffudin, from my school. BALAK ZURAINI. HAHA. I was running up the stairs and stood to a halt seeng him as he noticed me. The only thing was left to say was, "What?" Duhh. I wasn't there to talk to him or anything. Second, I noticed when the agent called out Aidil Asyraf's name. Hey! I just saw you yesterday DUDE! Hee. We still live in the same district. Thirdly, I met Afiqa Zawawi. I also met her eysterday at Elmi's brother's wedding. She told me why there's nobody taking the exams. I was kinda' happy to see her. She said there was also Adibah. My ex-classmate from Hillcrest waiting for the Theory test. When I waited for my ride home, I asked if she could lend me an sms to send to my agent. But it FAILS to send itself to the right number. DAMN. Not to forget, Syahid. A long time friend during my elementary school. I used to pick fights with him and we sorta' forgot each others names. HEHE. But we were kinda' happy seeing each other.

Well, WHATEVER for today.

Teacher

I miss this teacher freaking much! He's my class teacher during my UPSR year. He teached me Bahasa Melayu and he's such a caring teacher to me. He was also a tuition teacher where I went once. So, I spent a lot of time studying under his care. I wasn't a very bright student in class because having trouble fitting into a new class and stuff happened. BAADD STUFF. Kiddy problems. HEHE. I was confused at that time. Not understanding the situation I was in. Okay, what's the relation with my kiddy problems with this teacher? HAHA. Not much. I FAIL BM. It was his subject. I remember UPSR was around the corner and I scored 78% for Pemahaman. It used to be 80% but when we rechecked, there was a mistake at marking. So I went up to him as said, "Cikgu silap tanda. Jawapan ni salah." So he changed the mark and I sat down at my desk felt upside down. I cried so hard on my desk, I was practically drooling all over it. Imagine how messy I was. The teacher called me again to take my Mathematics paper so my deskmate budge me. "Hey, go take your Math paper already!" I was nobody to complain. He saw I was crying and asked me why.

"I tried and tried so hard to get an A in Pemahaman. Why is it so HARD?! I'm so close to getting an A, why must I have this "B"? I can't do it anymore." -I said.

He just listened to little dear me and try to encourag that my target wasn't too far away and I was doing just as well with the other subjects so I shouldn't worry. I couldn't remember what happen afterwards. The next thing I knew it, I was sitting at my desk for the UPSR BM paper with hopes my teacher was right. I checked and rechecked it lots of time. When the results came out, that teacher called my name, I was shaking. I chant a prayer having hopes it will all turn out fine. He smiled at me, when I took my results, straight 5 A's in my hand. All I could at that time was, ALHAMDULILLAH. (TT^TT)o <-------muka puas hati.

And here I am today, I met him at Elmi's older brother's wedding; the brother is also a teacher at the same school as my class teacher is currently teaching. I was thrilled to know he was there but leaving. SO I dashed to catch up to him and say "HI". He had that same smile he gave to me. He said my name wrong but he never forgotten who I was truly. The student who felt like a FAILURE at BM was still alivee!!!! HAHA. He asked how I was, where was I schooling at. I told him I was fine, finished school at SMTG and waiting to attend PLKN. He still encouraged me in the same old manner. So, some things just won't change. And this was certainly Okay.

I love you Cikgu Dzul. <3

Korean? Japanese?

It seems I've been addicted to this song somehow. I dunno. They're so cute and the song just give such a happy feeling. The song is called "GEE" by Girls Generation. It's a Korean group but the song above is its japanese version because I favour Japanese more than Korean. No offence Korean fans + Girls Generation. So, maybe I hope to notice more Korean & Japanese fans out there. Are there voters?

Love is a language spoken by everyone, but understood only by a heart.

HAHA! I promised I'd used this in my blog entry. Credits to Ikhmal Aziz. I love this.

Only Ikhmal's photo for My Top Followers is big. I was lazy to enlarge the last two. But click to ENLARGE. Easy right? This thing is fun to laugh at. Gives a smile to some people. Including me. I felt jumpy seeing myself as NUMBER 1? OMG why? Quite a stalker I am. A hobby I guess. Try to think positive cause I'm not hurting anyone. If it really irritates to have a stalker just go up to them and say "No, stop." Say it sincerely, NOT BECAUSE OF JEALOUSY.

More credits to Syed & Halili for the photos. Ikhmal, thanks.

Yawn-ing~

I'm just really tired because I just finished the first stage of the Driving Academy of Metro. I didn't know it's Head Quaters were in Shah Alam! OMG! That's WAAYYYY FARR!!! I slept in the journey home. I think I'll hit the sacks early tonight unlikely yesterday. My eyes were bright as an owl. BOOHOOO!

Tomorrow is MOVIE TIME! I finally can fufill my promise I made to my siblings about bringing them to watch TRON: Legacy tomorrow at KLCC. If you're planning on going there, SPOT US! HAHA. I'm going with a few friends + Amy. I hope she doesn't mind them. Hopefully, please...

Then, Zamri invited me to hang out at MidValley this Saturday with the rest of 5 Mechanical 1 students. But I heard from Haziq it's postponed until Monday. Which one is it guys??? Okay. It's time for my beauty sleep. Bye. :D

OH NO! CAN'T SLEEP

Maybe I cannot sleep because I'm going to a DRIVING CLASS tomorrow. HAHA! I'm VERRRRYYY excited now. And I'm HIGH on CAFFEEN disevening so, SAVE ME!!!

I need my sleep!

ADULTERY?

Now the Facebook-ers, more spesific my friends from school see themselves as adults. I'm not even sure if I am ready. If being an adult means to take responsibility and doing hardwork. It's going to be tough. But to act like an adult, to solve problems and face emosional means as an adult, I don't think I can handle it. I'm in a seriously BADD MOOODD today. Some things are just meant to be so cruel.

That's life. ;(

OVER, FINALLY!

FINALLY! SPM is OVER! And blast it all! That was the most fun ever answering the Engineering Drawing paper I had in my entire 2 years learning at SMTG. So, OMG!!! I DID IT!!! I FINISHED the Certificate of Education examination! I did my best until the end and went home with a smile on my face. Hyper-acting girl I was dismorning. HAHA. :D

Woa! Check it out babeyh! SMTG rules! I love you forever!

I'm gonna' miss this dudes! Goodbye SMTG!

EPILOGUE

My High School Years are going to be over. Tomorrow I'll be going back to SMTG and revise all out for the 2 last papers, Engineer studies(Electrical & Electronics) and Engineer Drawing. I hope, for the last time, I get to step into SMTG will be the best one ever. The MOST MEMORABLE moments I will keep for the rest of my life and this blog will be my witness. GOD shall witness it. Pray for my well-being guys. I love you all very much.

LOST but not FORGOTTEN

OHMMGEE!!! I can't believe I found this.

I was just chatting with a junior from the Form 4 orientation handled by the Prefects, Haikal, then when I found this: Some sense were knocked into me! He was depressing, he wanted me to remember who he was. I wouldn't remember him much. I couldn't remember any of the juniors above if they haven't been saying hello after the whole orientation ended. Only a few did at school. Farzana did. Sazmi did. Shiddiq did. Syukri? HAHA. You were all over Amin at the begining of the year, HOW CAN I EVER FORGET YOUR FACE?! I still remember the "flower made out of straws" you presented to me at first meeting. I was like, "Ko knp dik? Siap melutut depan akak." LOL

I was kinda strict during that orientation. At the end, when we were saying goodbyes, you all gave me the poster to keep + blue hat + your name tags. AHH! Sume berebut nak letak kat kepala akak! But I had fun and was thrilled spending the whole day with you guys.

Now, all of this is just another figment of my memory: let me recall. Syukri, I still see him. Though not that hyper-acting self I seen anymore. The last time I seen him, he went to play backetball. He was doing okay, so he said to me. Shiddiq, I see you everywhere! When I see you often, you are actually kinda' cute. HAHA. Suci betul muka. (^^) He always kept smiling when you see me. You teased how Sazmi and I were together. You came across me during Sofball practice. We were in the same Sofball club. Nice... Amirul... HEHE. I knew there was more in your connecting with Kak Pah. I didn't realized you were the same Amirul to Kak Pah as you are to me. And you are a student of 4M1? Did I get so many juniors from 4M1 in that orientation or what? HAHA. I was sorta' amused. Haikal, you were loyal. Still remembering me although we don't talk that much at school. Then, there's Sazmi. You would know the story. Contacted me first thing on 13th February asking me: "Will you.....?" Then the whole world revolves like magic. How did that happen? From, a normal life, to playing sofball, joining the JDI, making 4M1 havoc, to becoming a prefect which you hated so much at first. Look at yourself! Well... I'm proud of each and everyone of you who stick to this school.

I know, this SEMTEG actually sucks but it's a miracle we turn out to love it.

Looking

I need to clean up the mess in my room. I've been sorting what's keeping and what's going. Lots and lots of recyling to do! After SPM everything is going! So does my bedroom. My mom said I'm going to swicth my bedroom with my parents. Woa! That's a big bedroom! Yea, my house is big and has three floors. That's a lot of exercise. I'll be slim and slender next year, huh? HAHAH. But anyways, I have only so little things to keep. I just need a bed, bookshelf (you have no idea how may bookselves I need in 1 room), my computer, cupboard(my clothes to keep) and so on. But those I mention are vital. Including the bookshelf. I have so many books. I can imagine how I would like my room to be. Can I repaint it? HEHE. What I am looking for in my bedroom now is a plastic file containing all my Cocuricular Certificates from Secondary school. All my hardwork collecting them are in that SINGLE FILE! DAMMIT! WHERE THE HECK is IT???

this feeling

I'm not opposed to any of it and none of you should. What I mean is this decision. I made up my mind, and has too. I'm in a bit of a dump but I'm slowly making my way back up on my feet. I will try to be cheerful again. I will do my best for my next 2 final papers this week. It's going to be my final week in SMTG. And I shall promise you this, I'm missing this school more than you'll ever know. I love this person. I won't ever make it this far through this year without ever knowing him. Even if his presences is no more, but knowing how he felt for me, is even more precious to me in these times. He made my world whole; my heart. He had fufilled my wish: that will only be my biggest secret ever. He doesn't know he did too. He may not be perfect, but he's perfect in my eyes. So I'll miss him. Along with everyday I remember I've been a SMTG student. I won't forget him; and I just can't. He left such an important memory that lies so deep inside me that it hurts. But that pain shall remind me, how wonderful meetings were and how endings are made meaningful. Fate is made meaningful.

Thank you Allah, for meeting us. He was what I always wanted.

JUST

forget forget forget forget forget forget & forget.

Chocolate

I'm SINGLE. Seriously I am peeps. Some of you might heard, I have a boyfie but not now anymore. I just broke up with him. I cried a lot and it hurts even if it was me who asked for it. Now I'm just being quiet. I had a lot of quarells with him after that but it made me feel whole because he still is still talking to me. When he's not, the time stops for me. I try to move time by talking to more and more different people. People who I haven't try to notice how wonderful they are. It makes me smile for a moment. But I'm not the type to get into the fast lane.. I would take it easy. I really just feel guilty. I want a Utopia when I know it's impossible. What now? I'm actually giving up. Tired of tears.

What's wrong with me? I'm INSANE, aren't I???
I still hang on to this guy, aren't I?

You Are MOST Welcomed,

Muhammad Noor Ihsan, thanks.

You are really something behind those foolish crtics, but not all of them are bad. Don't worry bout' them. Let's talk talking again okei? It was fun staying up doing something besides poking noses into dusty books. We make good friends, don't we?

Say YES. :D


click the picture for a cookie. it will make it all better to see. :]

Go for VIDEO MAKING?

I'm not sure to go on with this video or not. It's still in progress but I'm still a bit doubtful if it can impress anyone. It's just a bunch of photos put into one video. But it takes so much work. Do you think video making is easy? Some of you may have watched some of my videos on Youtube or even at the Teacher's Day function: Zamri's talk show function? That video was under my efforts too. Using Windows Movie Maker is easy and simple. But for my next video (I haven't made one in ages.) I'm currently using a new programe called the "CyberLink PowerDirector". It has the same functions as the old movie editor but with more dazzling effects and fonts I can mess with. I so want to use the Vegas Pro Maker but I can't seem to Download it anywhere free. If you ever see one, TELL ME A.S.A.P! :]


Here's how CyberLink PowerDirector looks like.


Crap. Clearly you can't see the video. Well, give me your ideas.

PLKN yo!

"Where are you sent to for PLKN?"
Me, fidgitting the cellphone.. "Uhh.."
"I got.. Mukim Sungkai."
"Mukim Sungkai?"
"Where is that?" Me blurr face.
"That's... That's located at Perak."
"Oooohh."

Hey all! Yea, My PLKN destination is Mukim Sungkai, Perak. Once again, my block had an uproar about the notification of the PLKN camps being announced. The participants can check their camp location through via sms. As undiciplined students, we also checked with own unsupervised cellphones. Some of us got at Perak, Selangor, Pahang.... and.... ting ting ting~! SABAH! Woohoo! Congratulations! :DDD

But most of the students I've been notified who are going to be registered for PLKN is on their way to Perak this 3rd of January 2011. So, goodluck to all PLKN participants. Take care. :]

Hello SPM :]

Hey! It the BIG time now. Only 2 more subjects to go and SPM will be over. OVERR! Yippeee! Just a little peep from my point of view, the more closer to the end of SPM, the happier I am. I'm sure most of you are happy too. Not? I guess maybe so. There had been a lot of rumors notifying the country that the examination isn't playing fair. For example:

Some say the MALAY LANGUAGE paper got leaked out and had to repeat the BM exam all over again. I mean, HECKK! I would not so ever want to repeat any paper for the sake of virginity! Get a life, nobody who declares themselves a SPM taker wants to waste time on another repeatation of SPM. Duuh! But the ministry of education said there will be any repeatation for this paper so, THANK GOD.

ENGLISH LANGUAGE paper was okayy. I hope I make up to my teacher's expectations to get an A+. Amiinn~ May it be true...

Next was SEJARAH. My fellow students rely too much on the spot questions untill what they spot coming out, didn't come out at all! Maybe it leaked out too much, we had to answer on the 2nd Set rather than the 1st Set. Serves them right. I mean, I won't trust spot questions. I just revise everything through.

MODERN MATHEMATICS. Easy as pie. The most favourite paper to answer because it's easy to score an A. I hope I do get an A for this paper. I really do!

Then, ISLAMIC STUDIES was a crack. I was trembling when I was answering paper 2. It asked about the Imam's in the past and I didn't cover that part. What a slack. Or I would answer that paper so confidently.

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS was a swaayyy! I'm no star at this subject but I did find ADD MATHS easy. Everything looks easy for ADD MATHS when it's the last paper. So, I do hope I won't flunk this paper. I answered it with all my heart.

Woa, PHYSICS! It's my favourite Science subject but OMG! It was damn hard. GODD! Help me pass this paper with a credit please..... The only reason I'm not confident with this paper is because I was soo damn tired revising for ADD MATHS I couldn't stay up rivising much for this paper. Oh maaaannn....

Last but not least CHEMISTRY. The questions were so damn easy. But most of my friends complained how easy they were untill they couldn't answer it good enough. I guess, one should never feel too comfortable about SPM. Anything can come out. Maybe my CHEMISTRY results will be enough for a credit this time? Amiinnn... :-)

Now here's a little something I put together:

This is were I take my exam for SPM. The Civil students take their papers at the main hall. What a hitch. It must be tiring taking trips from the hall and the hostels for them. The Electrical and Mechanical students use the classes as their examination hall. Each level for each couses we take. So I have Room 4 from the Electrical level as my examination hall/room. The yellow box is where I sit. And I still have 2 more papers to go! Wait for me SPM!

p/s: Pray for my well-being. Chau. :]

HAHA very funny!

My family thought I was talking about going back to school today when I have the whole week free from exams! Oh My GOSHH! Isn't that funny? My next paper is on the 16th of December which falls on Thursday, and lately I said I want to be at school a day earlier to attend a PKE class. Which tommorow is Wednesday, they thought of sending me back this evening. WOW! How paranoid is that?

I just came back, now you want to send me off.
RIDICULOUS!

SINGLE

"I'm in a mess?"
"I think I'm gonna break up with him."
"WHHATT?"
"I still love him with ALL my heart."

In these kind of time, when we need to struggle the most, one by one, we CRACKK! ABSOLUTELY CRACKED. My friends and I are in a total mess with our boyfriends, you know? HAHA. I just broke up recently before... The Physics paper, I think? Why? HAHA. I saw a ray of light from GOD. How did that happened? tup tup tup... CLASH. Literaly, I asked for the break up, not HIM. Ngee~ So, yea, I cried, badly. My eyes swollened. Nyiihh.. But it's not out of hate we broke up.

Then, it were my friends. They also broke up. But unlikely them, it were the boys who wanted to break up. tup tup tup, CLASH CLASH. And I was like, "Why is everyone breaking up? It's SPM already!"

Haaa.. Dah Dah. If you know you're falling in love, one must learn to accept not only love but also betrayal. All of us, try to save what matters the most right now.