one day

Okay, I got an idea for a post. I'll make this quick cause I need to pack up to go home to the Hostels. hee. =)

Sometimes, the prefects have to work overtime. I mean, staying back untill all students emptied the school and take duties for the Form 4 reccess. It's oblidged to every prefect to stay back at school every weekday but we take turns taking care of the Form 4 students during recsess. I've done it for 2 times this year.

The 1st time, I was noob-ish. I thought I was taking care of reccess time alone. End up freaking out dragging Fana, Naz and Bebe cutting class a while. They were from the Electrical Lab or something. I think? So, when they saw me at the canteen alone, they tried to help me by staying. I was a little relieved, then Jay and Zoul came. They supposed to be there with me. It was later they showed up. End of stress! The Form 4 students' reccess hours were handled according to moi!

The 2nd time, it became a long period of time working as a prefect that time. It was more organized when Azyan was around. Lots of prefects were there to help. I was assigned to checked the blocks were emptied with Bella. Okay, it was sucured and everything. Then, there was this teacher who came up to me and asked me for my help. GREAT! DUTIES. She gave me a list of Form 4 students to meet. To collect their House Sport T-shirts. "Do I have to do this? Alone?" so I thought. I ran back to the canteen seeing all my friends doing their jobs when suddenly, my PK KOKO, miao. Called me. I was surprised though. Why?

She called me and I followed her up to her office. She talked to me about last year's event. "OH..." haha. My PK KOKO still remembers sending me to a K.A.T competition last year in Shah Alam. She wants me to spill some details regarding that matter so she can print out my SIJIL for that K.A.T. heh. That took most of my time. What K.A.T competition? Think harder my friends. Anyway, I needed to finish my work with this list given to me. So, go go I was to the Junior blocks, calling for each of the students names on the list. Some of them were afraid, WHY ON EARTH I AM BEING CALLED? Laa.. aku tak makan korang arr. tau la prefect. rileks sudaa. Others were okay. Oh well, everything went well of cause. I had hot cheeks afterwards.

I was late entering BM class. But knowing my BM teacher, she fully understood. I have to finish a BM essay on top of it though. hehe. That's all for my entry this time. Was it okay? Bye people. Wait for my next post, nee?

I had no idea

Holidays are going to be over. It was only yesterday I got back from Kuala Terengganu. Er.. It was also yesterday, I just found out of something that made me think again. I have a feeling that I want to speak out tomorrow. You readers might not understand what I am blabbering about. Call it as teenage process of finding her inner self. hehe. LOL. Well, tough luck. March entries aren't much. To tell stories at school, there are plenty. I'll make it up to you readers somehow. As for my Kuala Terengganu Experiance? hmm... I have no idea.

HEY YOU! Plz hear me out

I hope you read this soon.

I will be missing you. I already have. I heard what you had done at school and you will be moving away. You will no longer be a SMTG student huh? Is that what you want? Sometimes you said that's true but that's a long time ago. What about now? It has been some time we've haven't talked so I am writting this to you. For you. It seems blogs is the only possible way I can think of to communicate with YOU. I remember how I have taken notice of you for the first time and how it ends to be the last time we ever shall connect to each other. I wish it had not been this way. You forgot how we met, right? You asked if I have a blog. You wanted to make a Blog Community one evening. Does that spark your memory? I quickly became fonded of you for the silly pranks you pull off on me. How you used to kid around with your best friend. You remembered to smile when I saw you at school. I waved back. I didn't care what others think of us. A scandal? A couple? NO! We didn't care!

Lots have happened to you. You failed. I failed. You got mad at me. I got mad at myself. We never talked to each other again. Apparently, I got sick of my failures. Honestly, I wanted to be like you. Smart & bold. But I was the weak one. I tried to forget you because you were my pain. But that pain reminded me you were real to me. Real enough to keep me on going. So I tried to find my own strength. The real one this time. THANK GOD, with GOD'S will, I found new friends to rely on and slowly, the pain I sought to keep hanging on, healed.

HEY YOU! You were once my friend, a friend so complicated to understand but I was happy. You show humor only I can enjoy. You have an expression no one can copy, that stands out from others. Your words are poisonous but if only no one knows the real you. Let it be only you, the special one go leaving us all. Goodbye.

"Kalau ditentukan takdir kita berjumpa lagi dengan dia, TUHAN akan temukan kami semula. Jangan bersedih lagi." -random friend on YM.

Wednesday

What's with Wednesday? Nothing much. Naah laa. We have Kokurikulum every Wednesday. If you are a hosteler or outsider, you are treated just the same. Everyone must go. The school gates will be locked and nobody could go home until Kokurikulum activities are over. SMTG is strict about this too.

Last Wednesday, Kokurikulum have Unit meeting that week. Looks like it's time for marching practice. I'm not sure there's going to be any district marching competitions, at least none of I heard from. Only from the Police Kadet Unit. For that unit, it's like a MUST GO. Ceh. They even didn't win last year. Why bother? I support my Unit the Scouts. Last year, the Girls scouts quad won 3rd place. Maybe I was hoping for a little spark of hope to get the Scouts sent for the marching district competition. But as the PK KOKO said, 30% of the school's budget decreased. Some competitions aren't available. So we'll just have to sit down a watch what we can do. There is always the Annual sports day to prepare for. So the Units are gathering members for the Annual Sports day opening ceramony because there is always a marching intro. So good luck everyone!

The secord part of Kokurikulum is Sports club meeting. I always have fun going to Sofbol practice. This year, the Sofbol club has a full house! So many new members joined in. Juniors and Seniors. Too many to count. Where did they come from? Oh well. Sorry to say, there won't be any K.A.T for us this year. Sad sad. But there will be a Sofbol District tournament. Good news for us. It will be in June, they say. And the Club chairman, Ku Zahiruddin, said that maybe we will start practice everyday after the March exams. Fuuh! That's harsh. I can't remember how we practiced last year. All I remember only 13 members came one morning, all 13 of them went to the distric tournament. hehe. Anyway, playing sofbol is FUN! Coach came last Wednesday. The senior members were all happy to greet him and his family. That includes ME! Take a look at some pictures.

Terrible

Being a senior is tough. No doubt. Classes, teachers, friends, juniors, exams, prefect duties. All to worry about. Then there is this Couple List going on about in school that makes everyone freak out. Siapa nak kantoi kn kau?! blaa la weiyh! I'm not one who speaks many words but I'm a keen observer and pick up lots of information just by the sound some unfamiliar birds. I'm not trying to a be a SPY, I swear! I'm an occupied prefect and I know things. Like a ninja. haha. But gossips in school these days, aren't getting any more plessent.

1. The Couple list. Yes, this year, the teachers are getting strict. They'll find out every single couple in this scool if they must. Must be terrifying for everyone. It's like there are cameras everyone, watching every move we make, hearing every word we say. We, students ought to be careful when we are dealing with the oppesite sex. But try to think about this: Why are we so cautious about teachers finding us out if we are dating or not? It's a fact it wrong to hold hands, being over reacting with the other gender. Surely, physically, it may not be a crime but it can be a sin. Stay faithful to our religion. C'mon, can't we all be a little more patient until we graduated and get married?
2. Rocol. I didn't know what it means at first. But it something to do with seniors not getting along with juniors. Of cause we're not satisfied with a lot of things and have included our juniors into it, but can't it get any unrasional? Don't get to harsh my friends. Try slow talking with them first then only if it gets too out of hand, maybe rocol is the only way. Don't do it every night! I'm tired of hearing seniors ragging the juniors. Who knows? They are actually more nicer than us?
3. Mind bender. People can be so hard to understand these days. I have a friend who does a lot of unexplainable things. It's hard to understand. Just wondering, if he's okay or not? Secondly, the world has so much time for us to talk about unreal facts about people. For example: B goes on talking about A behind his back that it's his fault for making havoc around school. C who can be a victim to A's doings gets caught up with B's story ends up hating A as well meanwhile B in actually closely related to A as a classmate or good friend. Why are people turning againts each other, their own kind? For me, I'm certainly mad!

What bothers me now; what really bothers me is point number 3. I have many friends who do lots of unexplainable, unreasonable things that they can't explain or unforgiveable. I try not to over-react but it's harsh. It's not all my fault but I have many faults cause I'm human. Not because I'm some kinda' example,or leader, trying to be the best; I know I'm a prefect. I try not to be perfect but still trying to make things perfect. Even I do things that don't make sense but can't you at least ask why I do the things I do? Even Cikgu Zamri said the same thing. If you don't understand, just ask. It's easy. I really respect him. If you don't like it, I don't care. I don't force you to respect him cause forcing to respect means nothing. I don't want nothing, cause I want meaning.

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